What goes up, Must come down

Lee is still in the hospital and when I was there today I asked him how he would  title today's blog.  His answer was,"What goes up, must come down".  I will try to explain:

As you recall, yesterday was a really good day and I was able to convey that to you with exciting optimism. Today he is once again in atrial tachycardia which began as atrial fibrillation around 9:30 last night.  Atrial tachycardia is when the upper chambers of the heart are beating too fast.  His heart rate is 120-125 constantly.  That is what Lee means when he says "what goes up, must come down".  We are hoping the up rate will come down. He does not have a normal sinus rhythm pattern on the monitor.  So......................here we go again................................

The pulmonary team came in around 11:00 and they too were surprised that this had begun to happen again.  Seems the medication that works to regulate the heart rate also lowers the blood pressure too low.  They had to stop giving it temporarily.  The pulmonary team has now referred him back to the cardiac team.  We waited all day for the cardiac team to come and as of 6:00 p.m. they had not.  They may come later or they may not come until tomorrow. Meanwhile Lee is back to dealing with the weakness and trying to walk even though it is very difficult.  He also has trouble eating and sleeping because he is constantly aware of this rapid heart rate.

I was very discouraged when I left and decided that I absolutely had to do something that felt normal.  I stopped by the grocery store on the way to the condo and bought the ingredients for a lasagne.  This has always been comfort food for me and is a dish I usually reserve for family get togethers etc.  I made one and somehow it just was not the same .  It is a sad thing to eat alone, especially if the dish is one you have always shared with others.  Probably will not do that again..............bad idea.  I'll just wait until I can share with Lee or others. For the time being I will just rely on my other comfort food.........a Snickers bar....the entire thing.  I have lost enough weight now that I will just enjoy all that fat, sugar and cholesterol!

Lee and I are mindful of the good things now, even with this "another bump in this long, bumpy road".  He can breathe on his own and his color is very good.  The new lung is functioning so well that I am hesitant to even say that for fear it too will reverse.  The bronchoscopy he had last week was good........no rejection.  For that we are truly thankful.  Now for the heart..................we will continue to pray for that recovery and I am asking prayers from you also.  Thank you for your cards, your prayers and those good thoughts that you send our way.

More Later...............................................Brenda